So I'm a Little Weird...It Is What It Is

I am a very superstitious, number crazy, looking for signs person.  Take odd numbers; I hate them.  The volume on the TV has to be an even number; I only use even numbered check-outs at the store...even if I have to wait.  I'm just "odd" like that...haha!  I also see things that happen as signs.  For example, I ordered an infertility bracelet when getting pregnant felt like it was at its bleakest.  I got the bracelet and the very next day, I was talking to a nurse at the doctors and everything for IVF fell in place.  It was a sign.  Then, days before our IVF embryo transfer, the bracelet broke.  I knew at that moment it wasn't going to work, even though I tried to convince myself otherwise, I just knew.

So, last week I started my period and had to call the doctor to set up the HSG test (to see if my tubes are clear or back to blocked).  I got to work and knew I had to wait until the afternoon to call, I am a teacher and have no morning planning time.  Our principal emailed me to let me know that she had a meeting on the 16th and had to change our student planning meetings to the following 23rd.  Fine.  So, I called the doctor to set up my appointment that has to be done on a certain day in your cycle.  That day happens to be the 16th (tomorrow).  First thought...IT IS A SIGN!!!!!  Had the student planning meetings stayed the 16th, I wouldn't have been able to have the test done this month and I would have had to wait a whole month to try to "hit" the day in the next cycle.  So, I think it is good luck.  Also, my appointment is the 16th of the 2nd month (two even numbers) and 16/2 is 8 which is my lucky number.  So, I am expecting GREAT news tomorrow!

Okay, so now I am in bed, excited about tomorrow.  This will be the determining factor as to what we do next, if anything.  If they are blocked, it is surgery or IVF again (neither of which I am ready to do at this time).  If they are clear, we will discuss IUI.  Either way, I am hoping for the best, but prepared for the worst.  At this point, every possible test we have taken has come out bad in one way or another, so we are used to the disappointments, but that is what makes us strong!

Here's to good news!!!